Abstract Versus Non-Objective or Non-Representational Painting

I’m slowly honing in on the style of painting I want to pursue for this project. I think I’m leaning toward abstract and non-objective content and a kind of post-impressionist style. What does that mean? I’ll try to explain.

I’ve been exploring different approaches to painting. From color, style, size, content, etc. Just like photography, one process can differ enormously from another. I want the “correct” expression for this work. I’m starting to experiment with making abstract paintings of the RA-4 color work I made. I think that’s a great place to start. If you think abstract painting is easy, think again. It’s actually very difficult. There’s a lot you need to understand: color theory, light, shapes, shadows, etc. Not for the faint of heart (or people who think it’s nonsense).

The difference between “abstract” and “non-objective” or “non-representational” painting is this: Abstract painting is some kind of interpretation of something that exists. In other words, if I paint abstracts of my photographs, they would be some form of representational work. Non-objective or non-representational work is exactly that, it’s not from anything, it’s dealing with color, shape, lines, shades, composition, etc. I really like both styles, and they could play well with this project.

Let’s see how it all unfolds.

“Existential Crisis No. 2,” 4.5” x 4.5” Acrylic and Charcoal on Paper

Exploring Options for Making Art

“Cosmic Pepper No. 3,” 7” x 11” Acrylic

“Spiritual Fish,” 10” x 12” Acrylic

I never get tired of exploring and trying things. Whether it’s photography techniques, painting techniques, or anything else that I find interesting, I’m open to the best way I can express myself and my ideas. This week, I’ve been painting "studies." I’ve been painting how the light shows on balls, fruit, and a pepper. I’ve been playing around with the application of paint, too. I absolutely love post-impressionism, impressionism, and abstract expressionism. I’ve published two paintings where I’ve applied the paint in a “dabbing” fashion. This gives texture to the image and feels close to impressionism. Another area to pay attention to is color theory. Primary colors, complementary colors, split-complementary colors, analogous colors, etc. I’m working on all of this stuff while at the same time working on ideas for my book. Paintings will play a significant role in my book, along with photography.

A study concerning “spotlight” in grayscale.

Pears: a study concerning light - tints, shades, casting shadows etc.

Walking, Making Art, and Writing: War Pigs

We are in winter now, for sure. We’re only about a week away from the winter solstice. The shortest, darkest day of the year (in the northern hemisphere). I’ve found myself painting every day and writing again. It’s a great way to spend my time. I listen to music on my walk and while I’m painting. It’s inspiring and seems to help me work through the ideas I want to explore. As I worked on these paintings and was writing about my military time, Black Sabbath popped up in my playlist. “War Pigs” (1970) started playing, and it was perfect. I made three paintings inspired by that song. I played it a few times.

Winter is a great time for both. Jeanne and I walk every day too, regardless of the weather. Remember the postal carriers' motto? “Neither rain nor snow nor sleet nor hail shall keep the postmen from their appointed rounds.” It’s like that for our walks—we make it happen every day. The walks are important to me for several reasons. The obvious is the physical exercise (heath). But there is a huge mental benefit for me as well. I have time to think. I come up with ideas for either painting, photographing, or writing. It’s very important for me to distract myself (the walk) to be able to make room for the next idea, thought, paragraph, etc. to come to me.

My book has turned into an autobiography in a lot of ways, at least in the introduction. It’s swelled into many pages about my life’s experiences and how this obsession or preoccupation with existential dread and human behavior came to be. It’s been very revealing. I understand why people write biographies. It’s cathartic and really puts the puzzle pieces together in a person’s life.

Quinn in the desert in 1983, firing an M203 Grenade Launcher.

MY MILITARY TIME
I started writing about my military experience recently. I have mixed emotions about having served. On one hand, I’m very proud to have offered six years of my life for my country. On the other hand, I would have preferred not to have served in the infantry. I’ve never written about my military time. A lot of it wasn’t a great experience for me, although there were parts of it I needed as a young man in order to grow up and toughen up. I know a lot of people would disagree with me about some of the things I learned, or how I learned them, because 45 years ago, life and people were very different—it was very politically incorrect, if you will. It was the way it was, that’s all. It did force me to grow up and teach me to take responsibility for my actions. It also taught me that you can have a bond with another human being (a brother in battle) that transcends the superficiality of everyday life. That was important for me to understand. I learned a lot, but, as I said, in ways that wouldn’t be acceptable today.

I went to basic training (BT), where I received the Iron Mike Award, advanced individual training (AIT), and basic combat training (BCT) at Fort Benning, Georgia. I spent several months there. I served with the 24th Infantry Division - a (RDF) Rapid Deployment Force in Fort Stewart, Georgia. I served 3 years as an infantryman (11C) and 3 years as a combat photographer (84B). I was trained in 60mm, 82mm, and 120mm mortars, M16, M203, AK-47, 45 handgun, hand grenades, M72LAW, bayonet, and hand-to-hand combat. I attended Air Assault School in Fort Campbell, Kentucky, home of the 101st Airborne, trained, and received an EIB (Expert Infantry Badge). And then I served 3 years as a combat photographer with the 850th Signal Company.

4.2-inch (120mm) mortar being fired. A mortar crew consists of a gunner, an assistant gunner, and an ammunition man. I served in all positions. My last position was as a gunner.

THE PROJECTILE IN JEPP’S HEAD
Right now, I’m writing about a military buddy called “Jepp.” This event took place at about two or three in the morning. We always moved and operated at night. I was a gunner on an APC (Armored Personnel Carrier) mortar crew; we were mechanized infantry. We were hauling down a dirt road at 25 or 30 miles per hour in a convoy with only one tiny red light to follow the APC in front of us. All of a sudden, the APC in front of me suddenly stopped. My driver pulled the brakes on, and we came within a couple of feet of the APC in front of us. I waited for a minute or two to see if they had just had to readjust and get going again or find out what happened. They didn’t move. I jumped down from my unit and went to see what was happening. Jepp was sitting in the 50-caliber machine gun position (gunner position), the same position I occupied on my APC, and he wasn’t moving or saying anything. I climbed up on the APC and immediately felt what I thought was oil or hydraulic fluid all over the side of the rig. I put my flashlight on it (red light), and it looked like oil. I said, “Jepp, what happened?” He didn’t answer. I used my flashlight and looked at his head. He had a large projectile protruding from his right eye. It was at least 3” inches in diameter. There was blood everywhere. I was covered in it. It took me a few seconds to process what I was looking at, and the oil, or hydraulic fluid, was Jepp’s blood. I wanted to get him in a better position, so I pulled him out of the gunner’s position onto the top of the APC. I didn’t touch the projectile; I called the Medevac helicopter, and they arrived in just a few minutes. I checked Jepp’s pulse, and he was still alive. They put him on a stretcher, and he was gone in an instant.

I was covered in his blood. I had no way to wash it off. We resumed our mission, and nothing else was said. All I could think about for the rest of the night was, “That could have been me. I could have been killed.” Death was always present in these kinds of situations. Terror management theory calls it “mortality salience.” Mortality salience is a psychological state where a person is aware of their own death and its inevitability. It's a state of conscious awareness associated with psychological terror. I had several experiences like this one.

I’m also writing about the suicides, murders, accidents, etc. that I had to photograph during my time with the Department of Defense. They were traumatizing in a lot of ways. They offered psychological evaluations (post-photographing dead bodies and horrific scenes), but I never took them up on those invitations. I’ve been exposed to death quite a bit in my life, and it’s only now that I’m connecting the dots through writing this book, making art, and taking walks every day. I can see so clearly how all of these life events are tied to Ernest Becker’s theories. There will be a lot more in my book.

“War Pig No. 2,” 8” x 11” Acrylic and Oil

An article about Rick Rubin’s book, which I like a lot (as you know): Rick Rubin: The Creative Act

Nosophobia

“Nosophobia,” 9” x 11” acrylic painting.

Existential Terror No. 1 & Red Figures

“Red Figures,” 8” x 8” oil paint.

Abstract Impressionism is an art movement that emerged in the mid-20th century as a reaction against the more structured and representational styles of art that dominated the early part of the century. This movement is characterized by the use of abstract forms and the emphasis on conveying emotion and atmosphere rather than depicting recognizable objects.

It shares some similarities with Abstract Expressionism, but it tends to be more focused on capturing the essence or impression of a scene rather than expressing the artist's inner emotions directly. The movement is often associated with artists who were influenced by the post-war atmosphere and sought new ways to express the complexities of their experiences.

I’m exploring the idea of abstract impressionism using oil paint. In these, I’ve used Lamp Black, Cadmium Red, and Burnt Sienna. This approach has a lot of possibilities. The chaos or order that can come with these is so emblematic of life itself. It’s a great metaphor and concept to explore. There are figures that appear—openings, dramatic marks that feel chaotic yet somehow vaguely familiar.

Two Fish No. 3

I’m making a few paintings about fish (as you can see). I like the form and the symbol. As well as the variation you can get when painting these (as ideas for existential anxiety). Have you ever heard of ichthyophobia? The fear of fish—both dead and alive. The topic of fear interests me because it all relates to the fear of death.

Two Fish No. 2 Oil Paint

I ordered some Daller Rowney oil paint, and I love it. It takes a week to dry, but the vibrance, mixing of colors, etc., is amazing. I like to take my time, and I live in a place where humidity can be in the single digits. Acrylic is nice, but dries very fast here. I add retarder to it just so I can work with it. Bottom line: oil paint is wonderful!

Is it Something or About Something?

“Fish Bones No. 1,” 6” x 6” (15 x 15 cm) Oil

Is it something, about something, or both? I’ve been trying to get my arms around avoiding the literal. It’s a difficult habit to break. Coming from photography, where everything is literal (even if it’s abstract), painting offers you a lot of freedom. Sometimes, that freedom causes you to freeze—it creates a barrier to making work that is less literal.

I have so many ideas that I want to paint; I’m just trying to find my way in with a blend of styles—impressionism and post-impressionism. Those are the movements that are most attractive to me. I would add some abstract impressionism in there too. These paintings I’m making will always be centered on Becker’s theories and terror management theory, but in a very non-literal way. Sometimes the content will be non-literal, and sometimes the ideas will be less than literal. It’s more of a personal journey than any kind of commercial process.

I said in my last post that I’m reading Rick Rubin every morning—early in the morning—and he’s been driving me to new places and trying new things. It’s liberating. He said, “Look for what you notice but no one else sees.” (Rick Rubin, The Creative Act: A Way of Being) That resonates with me deeply. I would say that is the core of my work (In the Shadow of Sun Mountain). I’m not sure that no one else notices, but the idea is to get away from the obvious, the literal, and the commonplace. I get it, and I agree.

“In terms of priority, inspiration comes first. You come next. The audience comes last.”

— (Rick Rubin, The Creative Act: A Way of Being

As I find my way through this iteration of the project, I do find my biggest obstacle to be literalism. I’m working to break the chains of photography and literalism and find my way to most representational work, even abstract in some sense. It’s a fun journey, and I encourage you to remember that you’re the creator of your work; you’re the one that needs to be happy with it. Another Rubin quote from his book is, “In terms of priority, inspiration comes first. You come next. The audience comes last.“ (Rick Rubin, The Creative Act: A Way of Being).

“Existential Dread No. 5,” 6” x 6” (15 x 15cm) Oil

The Implied and The Explicit

I’ve been considering the words implied and explicit as they relate to art. When I think about photography, the word explicit comes to mind. It’s literal; it’s “of something.” Yes, it can be abstract, but it’s still something that exists. When I think about painting, sculpture, music, writing, etc., I think of the word implied. These mediums are less mechanical, most of the time. They are fashioned from nothing; the content usually doesn’t exist in “real life.” It can be an interpretation of something, but it’s always different.

“Art as a work in progress: All art is a work in progress. It’s helpful to see the piece we’re working on as an experiment.”

— Rick Rubin, “The Creative Act: A Way of Being”

My concerns and interests lie in impressionism, even abstract impressionism. To me, this form of art is the ultimate form of the word “implied.” There is so much freedom in making art that is less literal, more abstract, and less concrete. I can allow my mind to ponder the theories I’m interested in and create work that represents the ideas without being explicit. As I’ve grown older, I’m less interested in telling literal stories and more interested in exploring the emotions and feelings behind the ideas or concepts. I love photography and will continue to make photographs at some point, but for now, this is a much more powerful way for me to express my ideas.

I’ve been spending a lot of time reading and re-reading Rick Rubin’s book, “The Creative Act: A Way of Being.” He said, "Art as a work in progress: All art is a work in progress. It's helpful to see the piece we're working on as an experiment."

Photography has been a wonderful career for me. I made a living with it for many years and retired as a photographer. I’ve always loved it and appreciated it. As I’ve had time to think deeply about what I’m most interested in now, I find myself drawn to painting. For many years, I’ve threatened to start painting when photography doesn’t speak to me. I’ve dabbled in mixed media quite a lot over the years. In undergraduate school, I did a lot of experimental photography, even painting on images. But this is different for me now. I have specific ideas and themes I want to paint about. My Becker studies opened up so much for me, and I want to be free to express those ideas through post-impressionism, impressionism, and abstract impressionism. I’m no Pollock, no De Kooning, and surely no Van Gogh, but I know I have a voice in this medium.

My goal is to work through ideas and themes around death denial, death anxiety, terror management theory, gratitude, and humility. Those are the big-picture themes or ideas. I have several months now to paint because winter is here. Although I would be painting in the summer or in good weather too, it’s just a great winter activity. I’ll try to post occasionally about my progress. I’ve made 20–30 paintings so far and am still very much exploring techniques and ideas. Stay tuned!

“Existential Dread No. 1,” December 2, 2023, 6” x 6” (15 x 15 cm), Oil

“Existential Dread No. 2,” December 2, 2023, 6” x 6” (15 x 15 cm), Oil and Watercolor

Oil Paint and Watercolors

I’ve been enjoying painting every day. I turn on some good music and start with a simple idea and see where it goes. I’m slowly discovering a path that I want to pursue for the next few months. I really like the oil paint and watercolor (or watered-down acrylics) process.

On this piece, I used Winsor Newton Griffin Alkyd Lamp Black oil paint and Sennelier Water Colors. A beautiful combo. This particular oil paint is “fast drying” and takes a fraction of the time to dry regular oil paints take. In 30 minutes, it’s dry enough to paint over it. It’s really good stuff.