In The Shadow of Tava-Kaavi/Sun Mountain

I’m almost 40 plates (wet and dry collodion negatives) into the project and have started my statement about the work. I wanted to share it to show those interested, how I evolve working on a project. For me, it’s important to spend time thinking and contemplating the process that will communicate the ideas and emotions in the photographs. This statement will change and grow as I make the photographs. This is a start, a rough draft if you will, but it gives me a direction and food for thought.

In The Shadow of Tava-Kaavi (pronounced Ta-vah-Kaavh) / Sun Mountain

At dawn, Tava-Kaavi is the first Colorado mountain to catch the sun’s rays. The mountain is over 14,000 (4.300m) feet above sea level. The Nuuchiu believe it’s where Mother Earth meets Father Sky.

The Tava-Kaavi or Sun Mountain is always present here. I call this body of work, “In the Shadow of Tava-Kaavi” because the photographs are all made literally with the great mountain watching over. Nothing escapes its presence. The Nuuchui (pronounced “New-chew”) knew that, too.

In these photographs, I’ve tried to show honor and respect to the Nuuchiu - the Ute people. Most of the work is somewhat abstract and can be interpreted in different ways, but all of the work was made with the Nuuchiu in mind. The places they hunted, the places they sheltered, and the places they practiced their spiritual and cultural way of life.

I consider this land as their land. In my mind, nothing has changed in that way. They honored it and respected it, never taking more than they needed. It’s a beautiful place. In a lot of ways, it’s “other-worldly”. The fauna and the flora represent all that the Nuuchiu loved. Their life here was balanced and good. As I spend time on the land and wander over the rocks and through the trees, I can feel that balance, that good life.

The Nuuchiu/Utes are the longest continuous Indigenous inhabitants of what is now Colorado. According to their oral history, they have no migration story - they’ve always been here. They were placed within their homelands, on different mountain peaks, to remain close to their Creator. Nuuchiu ancestors, in order to maintain transmission of cultural knowledge, taught generations through oral history about the narratives and the names ascribed to geophysical places and geological formations within their aboriginal and ancestral territory.

Plate #1: Whole Plate Platinum Palladium print from a wet collodion negative.

Plate #2: Whole Plate Platinum Palladium print from a wet collodion negative.

Dallmeyer Lens & Platinum Palladium Print

Vintage lenses versus modern lenses. What’s best? I vacillate all of the time on this topic. On most days if you asked me, I would say that I’m a “vintage” guy. Other times, I would say that I like what modern lenses offer. In the end, it’s all about what you want to achieve. Both offer advantages and disadvantages. There is something about the vintage lens “look and feel” that appeals to me a lot. It’s a visual feast when you nail the exposure and allow the optics to sing. Truly wonderful. The modern lenses kind of lack that “je ne sais quoi”. Maybe because they are coated (which can be a plus in certain situations) or maybe because they are too perfect. I’m not sure.

Today, I’m a vintage guy for sure. There was such beautiful light here today. We have a snow storm coming in and it clouded up but was still bright. I love the rocks and trees on our property. I said this before, but I could make an entire body of work and never leave my land. And I just might do that.

I broke out the Dallmeyer 3B, stopped it down to f/5.6, and exposed a Whole Plate negative for 3 seconds. I chose wet collodion because there was some wind kicking up and wanted a tack sharp image. The dry plate would have been at least 8 minutes today. I couldn’t make that happen with the wind. I love the wet process, it does offer much better exposure times, no doubt. And, you can work in light that wouldn’t be optional for the dry process.

A Platinum Palladium print from a wet collodion negative.

A detail (iPhone snap) of the print. It doesn’t do it justice, but you can get the idea.

Questions About Collodion Dry Plate Negatives

I’ve had some questions and interest lately in my collodion dry plate negatives. If you have my book, “Chemical Pictures - 2020” you’ll see on pages 136-139 the collodion dry plate process. I give the basic outline of what I use in the “modern” version of the process. I have modified Russell’s original process a little bit from reading Thomas Sutton and James Mudd over the last years. Just like all of these processes, you have to find your own way - practice, experiment, practice some more, experiment some more. You’ll get it.

“Mohawk Rocks” Early morning light on the mountain. I tried to frame it with the tree branches. I really like the limbs crawling into the top of the frame. This is very “soft” light and changes the quailty of the print a lot. It was a 10-minute exposure at f/8 - 90mm lens. Platinum Palladium print - Whole Plate. May 19, 2022

Major Russell first introduced the collodion dry plate process in 1861. I recommend you download and read his book, “The Tannin Process”, it’s free on Google Books. Moreover, I recommend you read the real jewel, “Collodion Processes, Wet & Dry” 1862 by Thomas Sutton. That’s where my practice is mostly based. Sutton has been a game-changer for me in photography.

Three collodion dry plates ready to load into the holders.

Tannic acid is a preservative. It allows you to keep the properties of the silver iodide and silver bromide “active” over a long period of time. Think of it as AgI and AgBr hibernation. The drawback is exposure time. I average between 5 minutes and 20 minutes. You can go a bit shorter or a lot longer depending on the aperture and the quality of light. There are plenty of other dry processes, too. The Coffee process, The Oxymel process (honey and acid), the Fothergill process, the Collodio- Albumen process by Taupenot, etc. The tannin process is the most popular because it’s easy to do and the preparation is simple.

The quality of the plate will depend on iodides and bromides in your collodion. Sutton talks about the perfect “opaqueness” of the plates. I can get them almost perfect for what I do. I rate them at ISO 1.

If you’re working in the wet plate process, or have worked in the wet plate process, you’re 95% of the way there. I would encourage everyone that wants the freedom to travel to areas where a mobile darkroom is not possible to explore these processes - especially the tannin process. Again, you don’t need anything special if you’re working in the wet plate process - tannic acid and maybe some pyrogallic acid if you don’t have it already. Simple.

Nobody Cares About Your Photography Part 2

The irony of man's condition is that the deepest need is to be free of the anxiety of death and annihilation, but it is life itself which awakens it, and so we must shrink from being fully alive.” - Ernest Becker, The Denial of Death.

After I posted the first part of this, I got some feedback/comments and some questions. I want to explore the idea of death anxiety and its role in making art with you. I’ll do my best to explain how I understand these theories based on Ernest Becker’s work and the Terror Management Theory (TMT) of Dr. Sheldon Solomon and his cohorts.

It’s essential to start with Ernest Becker and his book, “The Denial of Death.” The best way to explain his theories is to state from the beginning we, as humans are aware of our mortality - we know that we are going to die. It sounds like a simple and straightforward statement, but it packs a lot of weight. In fact, I would argue, as many philosophers do, that it’s the driving force of ALL human activity.

Why is that? Why does the knowledge of our impending death consciously and subconsciously drive our lives? The answer is simple, we DON’T WANT TO DIE! We are hardwired to LIVE, we WANT TO LIVE - you know, it’s “the survival of the species” kind of thing.

The knowledge that we’re going to die, creates intense anxiety. Becker called it “death anxiety”. We do everything we can to stave off or quell that anxiety. All human activity reflects this theory; including making art. We are consistently trying to tamper down the anxiety. In our subconscious mind, we want to find immortality, at least symbolically, to help quell the anxiety. We do that in many different ways. Some make photographs and write books. Both of which will “live” on beyond the creator’s existence. Some have children, some try to gain wealth and fame, and some join groups to do “good”. Ernest Becker said, “Man cannot endure his own littleness unless he can translate it into meaningfulness on the largest possible level.

Most everyone has heard of a mid-life crisis. That’s when our age signals a “mid-point” in our lives - a wake-up call that it’s at least halfway over. Whether it’s physical, gray hair, menopause, andropause, retirement, grandchildren, whatever. It’s a time when some people really realize that the end is coming. What they don’t realize is that time could have come any day, any time from the moment they were born. This is the first time most think openly, at least in a non-direct way, about dying. There are many people that act out and it does become a crisis. We’ve all heard of the 60-year-old man buying a Harley or Corvette and getting divorced so he can find a 25-year-old woman to hang on his arm. Or people getting plastic surgery, face-lifts, hair plugs, botox, etc. These activities are all done in the service of death anxiety. Getting old equates to dying. Even not looking young, equates to death. The American culture is probably one of the worst in terms of existential crises. We loathe “old people”. We discard and discredit them. Why? They remind us of our own death, and that creates tremendous anxiety. I can’t go too much deeper or I’d be writing a book. I hope you can get the idea of where Becker’s head was - read his work and then follow up with Solomon’s work on TMT. It will make sense to you.

Let’s talk about making art and death anxiety. Sheldon Solomon said, “Living up to cultural roles and values—whether we are called “doctor,” “lawyer,” “architect,” “artist,” or “beloved mother”—embeds us safely in a symbolic reality in which our identity helps us transcend the limits of our fleeting biological existence. Self-esteem is thus the foundation of psychological fortitude for us all.” “The Worm At The Core: The Role of Death In Life”. Creating meaning creates self-esteem and self-esteem staves off death anxiety. Our purpose in life is to symbolically cheat death and “live forever”.

I was reading about Mark Rothko and his work the other day and ran into this passage. In November 1958, Rothko gave an address to the Pratt Institute. In a tenor unusual for him, he discussed art as a trade and offered the "recipe of a work of art—its ingredients—how to make it—the formula:

1. There must be a clear preoccupation with death—intimations of mortality ... Tragic art, romantic art, etc., deals with the knowledge of death.

2. Sensuality. Our basis of being concrete about the world. It is a lustful relationship to things that exist.

3. Tension. Either conflict or curbed desire.

4. Irony, This is a modern ingredient—the self-effacement and examination by which a man for an instant can go on to something else.

5. Wit and play ... for the human element.

6. The ephemeral and chance ... for the human element.

7. Hope. 10% to make the tragic concept more endurable.

I measure these ingredients very carefully when I paint a picture. It is always the form that follows these elements and the picture results from the proportions of these elements. - Mark Rothko

I understand that not everyone understands this, or is even interested in it. However, that doesn’t change the fact that it is valid and relevant to every human being. As an artist, it’s even more relevant because you are actively, consciously pursuing a legacy. Whether you know it or not.

I’m very aware or very conscious of the reason I make photographs. When I called this entry “Nobody Cares About Your Photography” I meant it in a philosophical way. In a way that means the ONLY person that cares about your work is YOU. It serves a big role, it gives purpose, it gives, meaning, and it gives self-esteem that will help quiet the death anxiety and allow you to be grateful that you are alive. That’s worth making photographs for, at least it is to me.